July 2010
2 posts
um...so i guess i'm dating someone
that’s really weird to say. i’ve enjoyed entertaining my fans for so long on this blog. haha. well, i guess i finally met someone that i don’t hate. that sounds a little like when someone gives a backhanded compliment like “well you’re not ugly…”
ok, i will give myself a real compliment and say that i finally met someone that i LIKE, that likes me...
ahhhhh
things that have happened since i last posted:
deleted my Cupidtino account after a week
told b&w cookie that i’m cutting off communication with him
told the young musician friend that i liked him but was told he just liked me as a friend; hooked up with him anyway (my idea)
joined OKC
went on 3 dates with 3 different guys
liked 2 of them
really liked one of them
went on a second...
June 2010
1 post
Cupidtino
i just signed up. i love macs. let’s see if mac users love me.
January 2010
2 posts
i won't let you get the best of me, match!
i canceled my match subscription before the last day. i took down my photos, changed my username, and hid my profile. if you hide your profile, it still comes up in searches, which is weird. anyway, i will do a summary of all the dates i’ve been on when i have a moment to write them all down. its been quite a feat, and a big time and energy waster (i say waster because no success has...
Dating life still sucks
More posts soon…
December 2009
2 posts
more DUMP
So I met up with that guy i wasn’t that interested in. When we spoke, it was ok. OK enough for me to overlook his receding hairline and lack of a real job. OK to overlook the fact that he lives 40+ minutes away. This is called desperation in the mind. That desperation convinced me that I was having a decent time…until he gave me the “My car is THIS way” (pointing in...
Since then...
it has not been exciting. i was hopeful for something new. unfortunately, its the same old dance. i changed my profile age back to my current age, and i am still getting emails and winks, so i guess that means i have a good written profile. but besides that, i am getting these older guys writing me. which isn’t so bad, because that’s the fact of the matter. it all changed back...
November 2009
1 post
i'm back...did you miss me?
not sure if you missed me, but match missed me…and my money. so i joined about 3 weeks ago, and went on my first face to face meeting yesterday. technically there was one before that, but i don’t consider it a formal meeting if the guy meets you and says he hates your choice of restaurant because he can’t stand the smell of the place, then suggests another place but runs away. ...
September 2009
1 post
the number one killer of a first date
i only have a few minutes, so i can’t write for very long. i wish my date-meeting last night didn’t last very long. its too bad, because i hadn’t dated in a long time (4 months) and i returned to the scene of the crime- OKC. so i joined the site again and went on my first meet-date last night with a guy that seemed pretty promising. he responded to my emails quickly and he...
July 2009
3 posts
type of the moment
I’ve had many “types” throughout my years. When I was a kid, my crush was on white boys with brown hair. When I was in high school, I was attracted to Latinos. College, I was fascinated with black dudes. Its funny how friends will know you for a certain “type” and just assume you like ANYONE with those characteristics, regardless of personality. I remember there...
Reality Bites
As much as I don’t want to think about liking a guy, I do. I end up day dreaming and lingering on his facebook photos a little longer than I should, and read too much into his comments and gestures. This would be all fine and cute, but of course these guys happen to be married or in a long-term relationship. Of course. I don’t want to be a homewrecker, not just because its an awful...
its been awhile...
its been awhile since i’ve written and a while since i’ve dated. the fact that i am writing right now is by no means an indication i have dated, though. i have taken on a new attitude (yes, again). now it is no more online dating, and well, no more dating at all. this is not to say that i have become asexual. it just means that i am going to try not to be judgmental with anyone...
June 2009
4 posts
“him: “Where’s your IM option? I thought I would say...”
– email thread on OKC with a guy who got my number awhile back but never called or tried to meet up with me.
breaking hearts
today, the sound engineer dude texted me. he said that he was back from his trip and asked me how i was and how was work. i knew he wanted to get together. i had some time to think about it, and i decided i didn’t want to go on another date with him. pity dates are no fun, and not fair to the other party. i thought about it for a minute, and then responded saying that my trip was fun...
Buddha's suggestions
I’m reading this book right now about finding live on the spiritual path inspired by Buddhism, but with a modern twist. It’s great and um learning a lot. I dig it.
fml
Last night I had date #2 with BBV. He’s a nice guy and I was trying to give him a chance, but I am just not that attracted to him. When I needed to use the bathroom at his apartment, it confirmed my decision to not want to date him. I found an un-flushed toilet and two logs floating at the top. I was grossed out and wanted to barf, but I didn’t want to embarrass him, so i just...
May 2009
5 posts
Breaktime
It seems as though my online dating season is coming to a close. I think just as I overtrained and injured myself for the marathon, I over-dated and feel a little worn out. I need to have some “me” time.
I cancelled eH and hid my profile on OKC. I went on a second date with Grandma’s Boy today but I just lacked enthusiasm. He was nice and we had OK convedsation but I think I...
He's Just Not That Into Me
thursday’s date with NF was the first date in awhile where i really liked the guy. today is monday. he hasn’t called or stalked my profile. when i drove past him after saying bye to him that evening, i saw him on the phone. definitely a “he’s just not that into you” movie moment. i was hoping he was just checking his voice mails, but i have a feeling that it was...
"not fat" and the start of a new quad, the 4MP
tonight i met up with a guy that i had exchanged a few emails for a couple weeks. i liked his personality online, and it wasn’t until today was he actually in town and had time to meet up. he offered to come to my neighborhood, but i drove to his bc well, his is much cooler and parking sucks in my hood. from his photos, he seemed kind of cute, but in the close-up photo, he looked a little...
late posts...BBV & Drago
last saturday, my friend invited me to his bbq/fight night. i’ve been to his bbqs before and they are usually filled with asian people who don’t talk a lot and girls who dress up like they’re going to a club. bbqs = smoky meat. smoky meat = stinky clothes. i opted for comfortable clothes, a sweatshirt, and flip flops. i knew there wasn’t anyone i wanted to impress...
Seth Rog@n got mugged
after postponing the first date, i finally met one of the first people who emailed me on OKC. i thought what he had to say on his profile was funny and we exchanged a few emails. my new strategy for dates is to - not get excited; not put too much effort; and just to be myself. i think that new strategy along with meeting more people i get along with, is actually working. (don’t laugh, i...
April 2009
9 posts
Grandma's Boy
today i met up with a video game dude for lunch. if you ever saw the movie “Grandma’s Boy”, you will know exactly what i am talking about. the thing is, we got along. i don’t know if its just because we spoke the same nerdy language, but he was pleasant to be around. attractionwise, he was ok. nothing really stood out, but he was also not hideous. haha. he works in...
I'm off the hook!!
tonight i logged on to eharm, and i saw that the Pershi closed communication with me. he clicked on the box “i just don’t think the chemistry is there”. thank god! i really didn’t feel the chemistry with him. i couldn’t get over his Pershi-ness: the tight black jeans, the black shirt, the oversized sunglasses with gold trim, and the mercedes smelling of smoke. i...
eharm date with Pershi
ok i went through the “process” on this site where you have to send people communication and get to different stages and you or the other person can “close match” whenever you like. finally went through the process with one of them. we had a meeting/date on sunday. he is persian. i met him at the coffee place in my hood. Pershi drove us in his luxury automobile which...
i needed a break
after that week of disasters, i decided to cancel any dates i had scheduled this week. i had a dinner date on thursday (today), and was supposed to see a movie on wednesday. i actually completely forgot about the movie date and unknowingly double booked and a dinner i had planned with some friends. of course my friends took priority. i wasn’t excited about either one of them anyway. ...
Swissbot
last friday, the 17th, i broke my rule of planning a blind date for the weekend. for me, the weekend is from friday through saturday. this guy, because:
he seemed pretty cute in his pictures
i had three bad dates in a row
i was hoping that he would break that chain. unfortunately, i was wrong. it started off with me getting to the restaurant (we agreed on dinner) on time, and upon our...
2 post date reports.
Yesterday, I went out with a guy i have nicknamed “s&p”, short for “salt and pepper”, for his hair/beard. he seemed attractive from his photos, and i was mildly excited to meet him. as the day got closer, i reread his profile and in my usual fashion, will find something wrong with it. alas, i did find something wrong. he didn’t seem to have a...
OKC Date #1: Post-Date Report
after this date, i’m going to change my mind about the rule where i give everyone a second chance via second date. this guy had too many strikes against him. he reminded me of this bf of a friend of mine who i’ve nicknamed “Sean Yawn”. except the real Yawn is actually more interesting than this one, if that tells you anything. first of all, the pictures he posted seemed...
OKC date #1. Pre-date thoughts
I’m going to meet 001 in a few minutes. i have to hop on the bus and make it over there (he said he was going to be late anyway) because i don’t want to deal with parking in that area. he asked me out for coffee. great. i’m going to be up all night. this coffee is supposed to be like crack. anyway, when i originally saw his photo and wrote to him, i thought he was...
recap since i last posted
its been awhile since i posted, and there have been new changes as of recent.
one of the reasons why i stopped posting was because i started seeing cookie again. the reason was mostly because i was feeling lonely. that lonliness is part of the “cycle” i have with him. however, i hadn’t seen him recently. recently meaning for about three weeks. the last time i saw him, i...
March 2009
1 post
match is boo, and the onion is meh
After about a week and a half, i gave up on match. even with my age change, i think it isn’t a good database anymore. meaning, i wasn’t getting as my views, winks, or emails from anyone. not even ugly guys.
fast forward to the onion personals aka “fast cupid”. a friend of mine started using it and encouraged me to do so. at the begining of the year i swore online...
February 2009
3 posts
this sucks
After three days, my roommate decided she didn’t want to do match anymore. She told me to use the account, and that is paid for already. I said ok, and took her up on the offer. I changed it to my information and picture. I was disappointed to see only one email in my inbox and three winks. Hmm. I think the fact that my age is 31 is a big deterrent. Today I changed my age to 29. ...
match: my enemy, my friend.
My roommate recently signed up for match. It hasn’t been a week yet, and she is sick of it. She insisted I use her account for my own purposes. I figure its a month so why not. I had already put a profile up (but not paid for the subscription) on yahoo but didn’t get emails from any of the guys I saved, but instead got emails and “icebreakers” from the ones I...
i think i'm back.
After several failed attempts at dating services, craigslist, random acts of weed, and going into cookie relapse, I’ve decided its probably time for me to get back on the proverbial horse and sign up again. I’ve droped my therapist (I got tired of hearing myself complain), have new roommates who happen to be single girls, and have added several new sets of friends to the mix, as well...
August 2008
8 posts
Practice, Practice, Practice...
That’s what my therapist says dating is. Its all about practice so you can get good at it. Identify the problems, or what you are doing wrong, and figure out what you want out of the relationship, and figure out the type of person you want to be with. I didn’t realize it was this difficult, and some would say I’m making it difficult for myself but who knows. I think I just...
my heart (ok, my ego) hurts
I think there is a trend among the guys I meet and attracted to, and it’s that they are self centered bastards. XXX flaked on me. He didn’t call me on Friday to confirm lime he said he would. He texted me today at 2 saying he would call me in a bit but never did. That just greater confirms my detest for people who are green to LA. He probably got invited to some Hollywood bullshit...
Annoying late night phone calls
Cookie annoyingly called me late last night. He said he wanted to chat. Said that it was the truth that he really did get set up with his current gf and that he didn’t know her or date her before then and was offended that I was calling him a liar. Whatever. So he decided to call me and chat with someone who was annoying you? I don’t get it. I told him I was annoyed and wanted to...
Time For Myself
After all the frustrations with guys and match, I am going to just take a break from TRYING and just let things be. I rescheduled my appt. with the therapist for tomorrow b/c my friend got me as their +1 for a concert tonight. But I’ve been thinking a lot and although I am going to go on the date with XXX on Saturday, I’m still just going to relax and just let things take their...
Delete!
I deleted BS from my phone. And the pictures I saved from his myspace. Of course I didn’t have any pictures I took myself of him with or without me, because we were never there. And because we were never there, it shouldn’t hurt as much. But it still does. I hate that I really fell for him and that he proved to be a dud in more ways than one, but I am am happy for the fact that I...
The Catch-Up Post
I’ve been bad about posting for my audience of two, I’ve been telling the stories via telephone or other means. Anyway, here goes for my secret audience.
I decided to rename WG. His new name are his actual initals which are bizzarely true of his being - BS. He is so full of it. It really is ridiculous. We’re pretty much broken up. He called me when he got back from his...
“An here I go again on my own
Goin down the only road Ive ever known,
Like a...”
– Whitesnake
Back after a month of being in love...
I don’t know about a month, but I was definitely infatuated for at least 2 weeks. It was very romantic, crazy, and spontaneous when it first happened. It felt like fate. We talked about it being fate and how we were looking for each other our whole lives. Yes, that kind of sap. The kind of sap that I’m not. The kind of sap where I would think of him constantly and tell him. ...
“STAY TUNED. I’M COMING BACK.”
June 2008
18 posts
Tumblr Break
So things are going really well with WG. I think its safe to say I will be taking a tumblr break since I will have less to complain about while I’m with him, and also out of respect for this new relationship. Yes, we had the exclusivity talk. :)
Ask And Thou Shalt Receive
Zoolander wrote me back. It was really sweet. He complimented me and said he would like to hang out with me as friends and promises not to put the moves on me while I am dating “the other guy”. I told him that maybe he would find one of my friends cute, and he asked if they were as hot as me. LOVES IT. I am really glad that he felt that way because that not only means I could have...
This Honesty Thing...
This morning I started a draft of a post that was titled, “Dilemma”. It was the dilemma of whether I should try to date Zoolander (Actor/Model guy I met yesterday) and Weedguy (WG) at the same time. I would be able to do it if I didn’t have such a great connection with WG. I saw WG last night and it is just really comfortable to be around him. He met a gang of my guy...
Primetime, Baby
Who knew that three months of therapy and a very expensive gym membership could work such wonders. Three months ago, I was depressed, felt hopeless, unattractive, and had very little energy for life. Today I am in the best shape I’ve been in years, am thinking positive, have confidence, feel attractive, and have more than one man’s affections. Weedguy showers me with affection and...
Date #2 and A Consideration Proposal
Yesterday, Cookie was in my neighborhood and since I told him we could still hang out just as friends, he took the opportunity to stop by and hang out. It was interesting to see him and not have the same feelings for him. They were really gone. I guess it really is true that you have to meet someone new to get over someone old. Anyway we hung out, played video games, chatted, and then on his...
Finally
Today I had a chat (online) with Cookie. I didn’t answer his call last night, so he asked if I wanted him to leave me alone. I said I didn’t answer it because I was on a date. He asked if there was going to be a second date. I said yes. I said I liked this guy. I told Cookie that we could only be friends. He said that was fine. I didn’t feel bad saying it either. Cookie,...
Wow.
So 420 (weedguy) texted me today. he said stuff was complicated right now. i replied and said so was mine and there’s nothing wrong with friends meeting for a drink. We met for the drink. It was actually pretty amazing. The chemistry I felt with him. Its crazy b/c he said he felt it right from the start, when he met me, which I felt too. Anyway, I hadn’t had a date like that...