Reality Bites
As much as I don’t want to think about liking a guy, I do. I end up day dreaming and lingering on his facebook photos a little longer than I should, and read too much into his comments and gestures. This would be all fine and cute, but of course these guys happen to be married or in a long-term relationship. Of course. I don’t want to be a homewrecker, not just because its an awful thing to feel and do, but i don’t even think I can pull it off. One guy in particular takes class with me. When I first met him, I thought he was kind of cute, and felt a connection. This was all before he mentioned his wife, and before I saw the wedding ring. Maybe it is a vibe, or maybe it is a comfort that they give off. I enjoy the tension on my end when I’m around him and daydream about him feeling the same way. Today, I met his wife. She joined him for a show after class and of course she was beautiful and I’m pretty sure she is amazing. That’s how they all are. What a wonderful way to put my reality in check. So I thank her.
Hopefully the comfort I feel and the subtle flirtation will work on guys that I actually like that ARE single. My habits resurfaced when an acquaintance messaged me saying he is going to be out here in a few weeks and “would love to see me”. Of course I am reading into it. And of course he probably was copying and pasting the same thing to everyone on his list to make it seem personal. Is it bad to assume? I guess if I can fantasize and flirt with someone who is married, it doesn’t hurt to try the same thing on someone who *may* be available. I guess you will know next Thursday!
