Delete!
I deleted BS from my phone. And the pictures I saved from his myspace. Of course I didn’t have any pictures I took myself of him with or without me, because we were never there. And because we were never there, it shouldn’t hurt as much. But it still does. I hate that I really fell for him and that he proved to be a dud in more ways than one, but I am am happy for the fact that I did and that I was able to get over Cookie.
So he called me a couple days ago to chat and find out if we could meet up. Really? Um, so I told him that I wasn’t going to get stood up…AGAIN. So I said that I was going to be in his neck of the woods for a bit after work and IF he was available when I call, then we would get together. He said ok and that he would make SURE he was free. What happens? He doesn’t pick up his phone or answer my text. Clearly he was occupied or wanted to do this as a big “F-YOU” to me. I haven’t heard from him since. I checked his myspace and he moved some girl who I’m sure he’s seeing closer to #1 on on his friends list. CURSE YOU, MYSPACE for giving me this information. I figured he was seeing other people and I tried to make a point to tell him to be honest with me, but I suppose how can you really play the game if you play that way. I wouldn’t be able to fall in love with him and give him weed and pay for drinks if he was honest. Silly, Stupid me. So I did the big delete. In a way it is cleansing and the temptation is gone to try to contact him. I never answer calls that aren’t registered in my phone, so if he does TRY (which he probably won’t) to call me, I won’t be picking up. What a disappointment.
On another note of disappointment and cheating, a friend brought up the fact that since Cookie moved on so quickly, he was probably seeing that girl already. Wow, another reason for me to be angry. So what do I do? I IM him and tell him my suspicions. He tells me that he “didn’t need to be agitated right now” by me. But he did confirm that he knew her for 10 years. Wow. I didn’t realize i’m supposed to consider HIS feelings when I had to deal with that BULLSHIT for seven years. I am an idiot.
Well I’m meeting with my therapist today and boy do I have a load to drop on her. Hopefully I can get some insight. Luckily, I am meeting Vin (new name: XXX) on Saturday. Supposedly we have a date. We’ll see if he CANCELS! Oh one thing I must say I like about XXX already is that he works out at the gym. :)
