um…so i guess i’m dating someone
that’s really weird to say. i’ve enjoyed entertaining my fans for so long on this blog. haha. well, i guess i finally met someone that i don’t hate. that sounds a little like when someone gives a backhanded compliment like “well you’re not ugly…”
ok, i will give myself a real compliment and say that i finally met someone that i LIKE, that likes me BACK. weird concept. i’m still trying to get used to it. anyway, i had done a lot of soul searching recently, which included: telling Cookie I have to cut all communication with him because that’s what i need to do in order to move on with my life and stop thinking about him, making a vision board, reading “The Soulmate Secret” and following the exercises in it which include - being specific on what you are looking for in your soulmate, such as physically and non-physically. oh, another thing that really helped was the hypnotherapy session that i had with a friend of mine. in it, i wanted to focus and find out what is blocking me from dating anyone. it was a very surreal experience because i was definitely put under. i felt my subconscious talking but i could hear it and i knew exactly what i was saying. my eyes were fluttering and i felt like i was spinning and falling but not scared. anyway, it was revealed that i felt like i didn’t deserve to be loved and i felt guilty from the “bad” things i have done in the past. after admitting that to myself, for the next few months i worked on accepting the past and feeling deserving of love. i told a good friend of mine that i finally felt ready to love someone and i felt like i was ready to have that in my life. the secret works in weird ways, because the whole visualizing and imagining that what you want you already have, is really powerful. i felt stupid saying it, but i was saying out loud to myself, “my boyfriend…”, and “my husband…”, and completing the sentence with something that i would like to say after it. three weeks later, i actually am revising an rsvp with a friend asking her if i can take “the guy i’m seeing” to the party with me.
i don’t want to jump the gun or say anything too soon, but i have a really good feeling about this guy. regardless of what happens, i’m really happy with myself and happy that i feel like i do deserve to be loved and to be treated well.
happiness and confidence is definitely an attraction, because i feel as though more guys are flirting with me now, including guys from my past. who knew?!
